Edge

Ground Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yourself" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged.

1) If someone I don't really like expresses an interest that I also have, I'll pretend not to be interested in that particular thing.

2) I hit the alarm button several times right after setting it to make sure I really did set it for "am" and not "pm."

3) I have to put on pants or shorts before I put on my shirt.

4) I will think of things to do the next day just as I am getting into bed, but the next morning the ideas don't seem nearly as good.

5) Lately I refer to many things (my life in particular) as a "logistics nightmare."

I tag: If you read this and you haven't been tagged yet, you're tagged. I refuse to point.

Edge

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: good(meaning not on the radio/not pop-culture-cool

September 20th--meeting, board room, 3-4
September 21st--class, 6-9 pm
September 22nd--cafeteria duty 7-745 am
September 22nd--3:40 pm ILT meeting West Concord
September 22nd--class 6-9 pm
September 23rd--dance duty 3-5 pm
September 23rd--class 6-9 pm
September 24th--class 8a-5p
September 27th--meeting, board room, 3-4
September 28th--meeting, conference room 1030a
September 28th--meeting, conference room 3 pm
September 29th--class 6-9p
September 30th--class 6-9p
October 1st--class 8a-5p

all this on top of teaching M-F 8 to 3.

snooze...

Current Mood: tired

I posted this as a reply on A's post then decided it would be good enough to submit as my yearly LJ entry...

This is my prediction for what we'll be hearing soon...

"A fly sneezed in the backcountry of Australia, causing a fuel price spike of 30 cents per gallon, Bob."

Everything causes gas to go up. God knows we'll never search out and put into effect comething that would, gasp, make gas less expensive. Katrina or no Katrina, the "powers that be" play with us constantly.

My cousin lives in one of those "self-contained" communities in Huntersville near Lake Norman. He can walk two blocks to get groceries, go to the movies, etc etc. I think that is what the future probably is for us. Just look at many overseas cities. Fuel over there is crazy high, but everything's so centrally located, you can walk just about anywhere you need to go. If I could live without a car, man I'd be happy to. But this country is a little different, a little more spread out, and our government knows it. But will government, or anyone, step in and say "Whoa, there's gotta be a cap put on this someway or somehow"? No. Of course not. Those of us who could possibly get by without buying gasoline, should stop purchasing it. Of course everything else is going up, but gasoline is the major commodity being hit.

I've been thinking alot lately about how long it would take me just to walk here or there, and it's a scary but not impossible proposition. And it may be my future. I'm definitely not against it.

Current Music: DCFC - Soul Meets Body

I heard this one at Tastee Freeze the other morning. Some lady who works there was talking to one of her co-workers.

"It's better to be short and be a woman than to be half a man."

Let your imaginations run wild on that one. I picture some guy's torso-less legs running around and yes, I'd say being a short woman would indeed be better.

Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: moody blues

Well, guess I can't hang anything on my walls for a couple of days.

I hate tacks-free weekends.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: the dryer and the washer

I found some "songs" the other day in a bin under my bed at home. My friend Scott Winters and I "collaborated" on these in the back of class while everyone else slept thru People's Court. When I found these I literally laughed out loud.


"Steak Tar-Tar" in the tune of Ministry's "N.W.O."

Ich bin eine stupid fool!
Ich esse some nasty food!
Sky high with a butt in the air!
Found in my steak many a hair!

Chorus near end--Gross steak tar-tar! (repeat several times)

Ate the steak, blood drip out das mouth!
Choke on the steak, go down south!
Use the toilet when you barf the steak!
The meat makes you spasmically shake!


lyrics-winters
music-winters
vocals-winters
guitars-edge
keyboards-winters
drums-jack-O.
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Massive Bean (Vasoline)

One time the lunch in here was served
it sucked and it bit nuts
Took a piss and tried to take one home...

1st chorus--Isn't you, isn't me, lets all feast on the massive bean
Going blind, cannot see, damn that massive bean!

Two times and it has sickened me,
bean drunk and without crepes
that bean is really gross.

Massive, massive beans we are,
sometimes it blows my job
keep getting sick here all the time

2nd chorus--You'll pee the brook
and you'll see the brie,
you'll see the brie,
and bean!



more to come...

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: bluegrass

Anyone who has skimmed my previous LJ posts knows I have a thing for overhearing snippets of conversations and posting them here, on LJ, out of context. This one is from Merlefest earlier today.

"You might have a soft one, but if it's pretty big..."

I heard that as I walked the other way past two early-senior-age men, and that's all I heard.

My assignment to all you readers is....Come up with the end of this sentence, and if you're feeling snappy, add a couple more!

Other than that, Merlefest was lots of fun. The Avett Brothers were my favorite. Their energy and creativeness made it worth the trip. If only my back wasn't wrenched--that made getting up and walking around--even driving there--rather difficult. I woke up this morning with the beginnings of a head cold, so I'm sure I'll feel crummy for a few days. But I'm glad I went. The music was good, the food as good, and I didn't smell any patchouli thank God. I bent my ignition key really badly. I stopped at a convenience store to re-leave myself and when I came back to start the car, the key was turning but I had to really muscle it. Turns out the switch wasn't turning--the key was bending. It still works, but it's about 45 degrees off now. Thank goodness others exist so I can make a copy before it breaks off and strands me.

Back to the term papers that bind me.

~Edge

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: The Avett Brothers--In The Movies

It took maybe one hour for fifty plus thousand people's lives to be taken, thousands more to be changed forever. Things like this make me realize that my worries are a bit petty. I mean, no one saw it coming, and you can't live on "what-if street," so to say, but be sure and tell the people you love, that you love them. And work on loving the people you don't.

Edge

Current Mood: determined
Current Music: The Cure - Cut

RULES:
1. on your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty-five songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing).
2. write down one line (or so) of the song. try to avoid putting the song title in the line.
3. have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. (NO CHEATING!)
4. when someone guesses correctly, strike out the line and list the correct name of the song next to it. (don't strike out the line until the song's ARTIST and NAME have both been guessed correctly!)

Have Fun ;)
1. Now, now's the time, time to reckon, be surprised, like a letter...

2. Call me romance, call me Louisiana...Free life withstanding, quiet can measure a crowd
Pensacola by Jolene - Erin
3. Prolonging the situation only makes it worse...tell him honestly, simply, kindly but firmly

4. It's okay, had a bad day....hands are bruised from breakin' rocks all day
No Excuses by Alice In Chains - Kevin(Ellen's friend from Fuquay)
5. His hair had turned from black into bright white...he said that it was from when the cars had smashed so hard
Mmm mmm mmm mmm by Crash Test Dummies - Amie
6. Who'd ya drag around my door? If I keep it cracked they won't be here no more...

7. I'm all busted up, broken bones and nasty cuts...accidents will happen but this time I can't get up

8. Workin' for something that I can't touch or sometimes can't even believe in...
Free by Train - Erin
9. Skating tires screeching brakes barely make a sound...we were on a winding road, going 65...

10. Will you shout or will you cry when the fire rains from on high?
Atomic Power by SCOTS(or Uncle Tupelo or originally the Louvin Brothers)--Big A
11. And if you want beautiful, pitiful, hide me in a picture. And if you want, make me dance...
Photograph by Verve Pipe--Ellen
12. Throw away the radio...suitcase keeps you awake...hide the telephone the telephone

13. "Don't go there," I heard her say, "You can't stomach what you're gonna see."

14. I couldn't get with the program and I couldn't listen to them....
Monsters by Something For Kate - Erin
15. And I guess I'm gonna have to live with that but I'm sure there's something in a shade of grey...
Anna Begins by Counting Crows - Erin
16. They won't deny your own education; they won't buy what is on your plate now...

17. If I was a booger, would you blow your nose? Where would you keep it? Would you eat it?

18. Brooding duplicitous, wicked and able, media-ready, heartless, and labeled. Super U.S. citizen...

19. You're so crazy, crazy for me...and I know just why, yea I know just why...

20. That's the reason that I'm asking, and that's the reason that I want to know...

21. I don't know if you know what I mean, 'cause I'm...never on your list...

22. And by the grace of God go I, into the great unknown. Things are gonna change, in our favor.

23. To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real...to know that you feel the same...

24. and I...want you, and I...need you, and all you are...is brand new, and I...need you....

25. Pick me up and put me on the ground; set me up and spin me all around, though you are not the one...


Some pretty easy, some are pretty obscure. Good luck!!

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Uncle Tupelo

Except for the time I was with Big A...but this is my own car...anyway

I ran out of gas.
Luckily, it happened as I was pulling into the gas station parking lot.
I stopped next to the pump and realized that the car had died.

But wow--103 miles on 5 dollars of gas...maybe 3 gallons at most?
That's pretty good, near impossible especially having a V6.
And the tank was reading below E when I put the previous $5 in.

Guess I should stop complaining about poor gas mileage.

Current Mood: rushed
Current Music: none

Had a good time tonight. Erin and I went up to Big A's to decorate the tree. As usually happens, I had the pleasure of crawling under the house; this time not running speaker wire, but resetting the furnace. We got it running only for a few seconds, but the house seemed to stay pretty warm. We discovered we had only half a tree's worth of lights so off to town we went. I got to drive Aaron's new Chrysler limo, I swear the back seat is 10 feet away when you're up front. Drives good, rides good....nice car. We made our way over to CVS where we picked up some more lights, a topper, and some of those god-forsaken-but-ya-gotta-love-em icicles. Once back at A's place we finished up the tree and relaxed in front of the telly for some good ol classic Frosty the Snowman. What a good time. Would have liked to stick around for the Garfield Christmas special, my personal favorite, but how time flies. We'll see that one next time!

Apple, peach, pumpkin, blueberry, cherry, or banana cream?

-Edge

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Jolene

"Come on, lets get some lunch and a door knob."

-a lady in the Belk parking lot, speaking to a child

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: eighty eight point seven

Religious affiliation?: Christian, but too open minded to participate actively

On a scale of 1-10, with 10 being EXTREMELY confident it DOES exist, and 1 being EXTREMELY confident it DOES NOT exist, answer the following questions/statements.

1. Leprechauns who live in Ireland: 1, I feel leprechauns are creatures of fantasy

2. A form of consciousness higher than our own: I feel like higher consciousness is a branch of our own consciousness, in a sense. 5

3. A soul or spirit: As in when we die, part of us goes on, yes--an "ageless" aspect, physically speaking. 10

4. Crystals/pyramids/gemstones that have healing powers: I'm not sure, my instincts tell me most of this is wishful thinking, but I'm not against those who believe in this-1

5. Astrology that can accurately predict one's future: Personally, I don't want to know my future until I get there, so for me, 1

6. Mental telepathy [ESP]: It's a cool concept, but from my point of view, I'd rather just communicate openly with someone--but if it really happens, neato-3

7. Believing something happened when it never did: I'm more likely to believe something didn't happen when it really did-1

8. One's ability to manipulate small objects with mind power: 1

9. Psychic healing: Maybe, but I'm against going to psychics for answers to questions we already "know"-2

10. A supernatural, supreme being: Yes, but saying it's God as in what we are taught in church is oversimplification--I believe there's more to it than that-7

11. Precognition, or knowing what will happen in the future: Once again, this may hold true for some, but I don't want to know my future until I get there-1

12. Witches who can cast spells/make incantations: For me, this ranks right up there with sending all your money to televangelists. No offense, to me it's all wishful thinking-1

13. Clairvoyance or remote viewing (see what is out of sight): It's called Object Permanence; but it's more like "knowing something is still there" when it is out of sight-my view anyway-1

14. Other lifeforms living on other planets: There HAS to be something up there, right? I just don't think it's what we usually think of when we think of aliens-7

15. Spirit or demon possession: I've seen it on TV, but it sure was cheesy-3

16. Animals such as the Loch Ness Monster: nah, Abdominal Snowman-1

17. The moon/planets' positions having an effect on human behavior: Yea, but we have control over it; no werewolves-6

18. Certain rituals/behaviors that really do protect people from harm: Behaviors? Avoidance is a good behavior to protect from harm-6

19. A human soul surviving death, going into some sort of afterlife: As complex as humans are, there should be an afterlife if there isnt-7

20. Time travel [any direction]: In the form we are now? I don't think our bodies could handle it. 1

21. An aura which some people can see/sense: eh, I think most of this is imagined, explanations always seem to unspecific to be genuine-1

22. Changing one's heartrate/etc. with meditation: I thought it said medication at first. I never meditate, but I can change my heartrate by thinking about different things-7

23. Other lifeforms who have kidnapped Earthlings: Just another basic fear of humans-1

24. Rocks that have spirits that can possess humans: If a rock just made me laugh, I give it a 10

25. White magic or Wicca that can tap supernatural forces for good or healing: I feel like Wicca is just another term of affiliation, of course that goes for alot of things for me. 1

26. An eventual scientific explanation for ALL psychic experiences: Maybe someday, but I tend to downplay psychic experiences anyway-3

27. A supernatural, evil being, commonly called the Devil: I firmly believe that bad things just "happen" to us just as good things or regular things. It's just the danger associated with our world, mainly technology. 1

28. Homeopathic remedies that can heal better than medical methods: As in herbs? Sure, we need to get back to this-10

29. Near death experiences: I've heard alot about them, and I tend to believe they really happen; they just get misinterpreted - 10

30. EVERYONE having the capacity for mental telepathy: I would have to do some research into this field before making a valid comment, but right now it doenst hold water for me-1

31. A devil who will eventually defeat God: In the battle of good vs evil, good always wins. Well, sometimes. 1

32. Some people's ability to gain information about a person by handling their belongings: If I had someone's bank statement, I'd know a hell of alot. 1

33. Spirits of the dead [ghosts, angels] that can become involved with our world: Maybe so, maybe not. neutral

34. Black magic or voodoo which has supernatural effects on people: Just a scare tactic-1

35. Subliminal perception or subconscious knowledge: 10.

36. Astral projection: I don't know what this is/no answer

37. Numbers that can have supernatural properties: Lottery numbers maybe-1

38. Tarot cards' abilities to provide information about our lives and/or the future: I had the cards read for me once, but it was just to general and unspecific to be genuine-1

39. A devil directly involved with the world: Again, just an excuse people use for bad experiences-1

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EXPERIENCES SURVEY



1. Had a feeling of deja vu: no

2. Had a feeling of being in touch with someone far away, without using the traditional 5 senses: no

3. Practiced white magic for the good of others: no

4. Been to a spiritual healer who helped your problem: no

5. Known an event would happen without a normal way for you to know this: no

6. Successfully used Ouija, tarot cards, etc. to learn information: no

7. Given someone a psychic reading: no

8. As an adult, carried "good luck" charms: no

9. Had your prayers answered: cant remember any specific occurrences

10. Paid to see a fortune-teller or psychic: no

11. Seen or felt the presence of a ghost: thought i did, but no way to tell

12. Moved or bent an object using mental energy: no

13. Personally seen aliens: i've seen unexplainable lights/objects

14. Wondered whether you could have ESP: no

15. Had an outside spirit temporarily enter your body: no

16. Taken actions based on your horoscope: no

17. Felt that you or your consciousness was OUTSIDE your body: yes, but originating inside

18. Read someone's palm/tarot cards/etc: no

19. Had a dream/vision that became prophetic: not so far

20. Had a feeling you may have been abducted by aliens: no

21. Used homeopathic remedies to cure an illness: to help, sure

22. Personally seen a spell or incantation work: no

23. Changed your luck by performing certain rituals: no

24. Felt that you were in touch with someone who was dead: A nice thought, but no

25. Been able to tell what someone was thinking about: Through body language, all the time

26. Had an unusual premonition come true: no

27. Practiced voodoo or black magic: no

28. Felt you were in the presence of demons: just bad people

29. Personally seen [not on tv] a strange creature kill someone: no

30. Seen or felt someone else's aura: no

31. Had a near death experience: no

32. Bought or used a gemstone or crystal for healing powers: no

33. Cast a spell or used an incantation AGAINST someone: no.

34. Seen a magician's performance on TV: yea

35. Seen/felt the presence of a spirit guide or angel: could have, not sure

36. Witnessed a true miracle: not like a healing, i've heard about some cool stuff happening

37. Made things happen to other people just by thinking about it: no

38. Studied and used spells successfully: no

39. Correctly senses someone was in trouble: sometimes based on what they are doing and their actions

40. Healed someone without touching them: maybe in subtle ways through words and gestures and kindness?

41. Seen a UFO: could have, not sure. seen some cool things though

42. Sensed an energy field around someone's possessions: no

43. Seen or heard an unidentified animal: heard something in the woods once with my friend Scott--we ran off so there's no telling what it was

44. Seen a faith healing: no

45. Personally met someone you thought was psychic: no

46. Been in a house you believed was haunted: no

47. Had someone claim to see your aura: no

48. Felt that you have had previous lives: no

49. Read your horoscope: yeah.

50. Met someone who believes they have ESP: no

51. Been possessed by a demon: no

52. Been thinking of someone just before they contacted you: used to happen alot, but not lately

53. Personally seen someone practice white magic: no

54. Had your mind leave your body: not really

55. Personally seen a spirit harm another spirit: no.

56. Had a life-changing spiritual experience: in some sense of the term, yeah

57. Done astral projection: no

58. Guessed someone astrological sign from their personality: no

59. Thought about your own death: nah, it's going to happen, no use dwelling on it

60. Had a mistaken memory in which something you thought happened to you really happened in a movie, tv show, dream, etc: dont think so


Next one:

YOUR NAME
(1) Steve

(2) If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been? I think Olivia or something such as that

(3) Would you name a child of yours after you? No, they need their own special unique name. I agree.

(4) If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with? I don't think I would switch.

(5) What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? I've ben called Stefen before

(6) If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name (like Madonna, Cher, Roseanne? Sure wouldn't. I often drop the J out of Michael J Fox or the Earl out of James Earl Jones just to be ass-y


HUMOR
(13) How easy is it to make you laugh? I'm easily amused, but not by deviant humor
(14) What person you know makes you laugh the most? It's selfish, but I crack myself up all the time
(15) Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn't? yea
(16) Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn't? yea, only to those who would appreciate them
(17) What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile? *shrug*
(18) What do you think is the funniest thing you've ever said or written? "I'm happy as a tin can." One of the very few times I got drunk

MUSIC
(19) Do you ever dance to music when nobody's watching? yeah

(20) What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard? Cult Of Personality and anything by Metallica or AC/DC--sorry Ez, no offense
(21) What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better? None, songs I dont understand, I tend to assign them their own meaning

(22) What song(s) are constantly in your head? It changes all the time

(23) What song(s) do you think describe your personality best? "Sylmar" by Cool For August

(24)If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s)would you use? It would be too random to list here

(25)If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s)would you hope he or she used?
I don't know or care--it's the feeling that counts

FOOD
(31) When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness? Both.

(32) What's your favorite kind of cheese? right now, monterey jack, but I know cheese is baaad for you

(33) What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality? I'll give you a tummy ache if you eat too much of me

(34) If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food, hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it? No, most of it i dont eat anyway--no meat anyway

(35) Do you ever feel guilty eating meat? i'm vegetarian

COMPUTERS
(36) Mac or PC? PC

(37) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer, as long as it works? I like working on computers, and I know a few things about their innards, thanks Big A

(38) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation? I detest IMs and everything that has to do with them.

(39) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone? I tend to avoid IMs.

(40) Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later? No, once I got the wrong item, but it was something I could use so it was ok.

THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
(41) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? not really wished, but wondered what it was like

(42) What do you love most about the other gender? most? i don't know, I just thing I need her to feel totally complete, like it's complementary

(43) What do you dislike most about the other gender? I don't nkow, it's hard to generalize, i just dislike specific things about specific people

(44) What do you understand least about the other gender? Once again, how do you generalize things such as that?? People are all different, and I think gender is kind of a physical aspect more than anything else

NUMBERS
(52) Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69? no, and im annoyed by those that do, especially those who have it in their email or screen name etc.

(53) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question? no.

(54) Do you actually know your Social Security Number? yes

(55) Do you actually know your IP address? no.
(56) Do you know what an IP address is? I had a networking class, so yes

(57) Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code? yes

(58) Ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives? yes, but I'm more bothered by acronyms. what a sign of laziness

(59) Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.? no.
(60) What do you think of pi? three point one four something something

LOVE, SEX AND ALL THAT
(61) Did you get a little frightened or uncomfortable seeing this as a section title? no

(62) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? It's happened before, I just distance myself without being obvious about it


(63) Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going in "blind"? No blind dates, been there, beh.

(64) Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member? I don't see why not.

(65) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? I don't care either way.

(66) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? that seems too empty

(67) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? unattractiveness is in the eye of the beholder right? I haven't experienced romantic attraction other than who im with now so neutral on this one

(68) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking? My first answer is what does it matter. Maybe so, maybe not.

(69) Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last? Yes. Emotional commitment is more fulfilling that sex in itself.

(70) Do you think the number of the last question was a coincidence? I didn't notice it until I read this question.

POSSESSIONS
(71) What is your favorite possession? my cds and pictures and books

(72) What physical, tangible possession do you want most? a cool little house

(73) How badly do you want it? not real bad, im sure it'll happen in due time

(74) Have you ever seen 'The Exorcist'? no


THREE TRULY RANDOM QUESTIONS
(92) Would you like to be cloned? no

(93) Do you wish you could be alive when the world was ending, just to experience it? sure

(94) Scaramouche, scaramouche, will you do the fandango? That reminds me of Wayne's World. Ah, those were good times

THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
(100) When was the last time you let the people you love know you love them?
Thankfully I do it almost daily

(101) What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know?
I hope you are all doing well, and I wish you the best in everything.

HAVE YOU EVER
109. Drank Alcohol: yeah
111. Gotten Drunk: yeah
112. Had Sex: yeah
113. Dyed Your Hair: no
114. Kissed the Same Sex: no
115. Thought about Killing yourself: no
116. Hated yourself: no
117. Liked someone way older than you: no
118. Liked someone way younger than you: yeah
119. Broken a Bone: no
120. Had Surgery: no
121. Talked to Strangers: yeah
122. Ran Away From Home: no
123. Did the opposite your parents told you to do/not to do: yeah
124. Sang in public: yeah
125. Worn a Dress: no
126. Worn a Tie: yes
127. Worn a Suit: yes
128. Gotten in to a physical fight: yes
129. Hurt someone emotionally: yea
130. Hurt someone physically: no
131. Made someone cry: yea
132. Said you loved someone: Of course!
133. Said you hated someone: no
134. Talked to a stuffed animal: yes
135. Talked to yourself: yes
137. Danced in public: no
138. Danced when no one was looking: yes

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Jolene - Clear Bottle Down

For Erin: Take away her parents' constant struggle with money; for one so she could get a car to get back and forth to school or babysitting when I have to work; assure her that her hopes and dreams are not too far flung and will be achieved in time

For Ellen: Listen to her, understand her as best I can, and be there for her whenever she needs someone

For Katie: Just be stupid so she'll have something to laugh about/at

For Big A: Change his body so it wouldn't know disease and struggle

For Will: Assure him that going to State will be the answer to whatever financial/bored with Morganton problems he may have; also find happiness for his mom, and sister and her family/kids

For Amie and Noah: Take away the stress of looking for/mortgaging a house; assure them that all will work out in time and it will be worth it when it does

For me: Put on some good music, close my eyes, and relax. For a minute or two, anyway :-)

For everyone else: You tell me. Anything I can do?


Cheers, everyone. Let's love each other for who we are, not hate each other for past decisions and actions. Happy 2004!!

Edge

I've learned that my folks aren't quite the easy-going people I always thought they were. Things have gotten to the point that the thought of going to their house makes me cringe with dread. There's never any conversation directed towards me other than Bible trivia, job/employment criticism, or just plain displeasure about what is "wrong" with my life. When I think about it, it has been this way for quite a while. I'm not sure why it is just now beginning to wear on my nerves. Don't get me wrong. I feel like I have great parents. I just wonder where they went and where the two people who took over their bodies came from.

It gives me a sickeningly satisfying (read:good) feeling thinking about the days to come when they won't know where I am, what I'm doing, and will have no way whatsoever to contact me. It makes me shiver with delight. I smile to myself now just picturing them ripping their own hair out trying to figure out why I won't call or write.

AVALANCHE AMINOS

Give him hope,
Give him progress,
Give him time.

Sell him communion
Dream angels telepathy
It's an item of appropriate backing, regardless of enemies.

Things are fine beneath your zodiac sign;
The dancing monsters have all gone home to bed to find their secret hideaways.
(I think that part is really descriptive and cool)

If this is the reason
That I have no recall,
Let each man have his fuss.
It's not a thing.
You think you can run
But you know you must fall;
Ever spiralling down,
Afraid forever.

It fazes me slightly;
It dazes me nightly;
But these things won't hurt me,
And I feel like a completely different person

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Guided By Voices - Avalanche Aminos

Standing next to Stone Mountain is truly a spiritual experience. Climbing it is something truly amazing I'm sure. I looked up at it only to feel like I'd get up there, look down, and lose everything I'd eaten for the past few days. I will crawl up that monster one day, if only to conquer my own greatest fear.

10 or so days with no posts....how's everyone doing?

Current Music: Yo La Tengo - Tiny Birds

I'm completely down-to-earth!

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

Current Mood: working
Current Music: Guster - Jesus on the Radio

It's easy for me to remember September 12th, 1987. There you stood in the back of dad's truck enjoying all the attention you were getting from that group of kids. I walked up and scratched your head while asking dad "Whose is it?" "It's yours!" he told me. And for the next 15 years you proved to be an awesome, loyal friend. I remember so much. The way you whined those first few nights you had to stay outside alone; the time you ate the cars that came with the race track i got for Christmas; the time you knocked my ice cream cone out of my hand before i even got a bite; the time you wanted to ride in Mark's Monte Carlo so badly you jumped up on the roof and refused to come down; the time you ran off the back porch, around the bush, and straight into dad while he was lying there on his patio recliner asleep; I remember all those walks you took with me down the street, how you chased the deer as they tried to get a bite to eat in the garden, and how just the other day I lifted you out of the truck after you enjoyed one of your favorite things, riding around town.

I'm sorry I wasn't here to see you off. You were buried facing Table Rock. Mom and Dad didn't know I was up there when you were called out, but maybe you did. Thanks for all of the good times, and thanks for being my friend. I have lots of pictures of you, but even if they are lost someday, the memories will never fade. 15 years....you saw me grow up; you were here quite a while, but it doesn't seem that long looking back. I'm looking forward to seeing you again on the other side, I know you're out there making some new buddies and chasing the birds and squirrels like you always did. And I really hope there'a a big green Chevy truck up there for you to take rides in. I miss you, and always will. Echo, arrival September 12th 1987, departure March 22nd 2003.

Steve

"Yea....you will be...riding around, forever..."
("Manmade Horse", Something For Kate)

Current Mood: numb
Current Music: Smashing Pumpkins, "Luna"